Love

the eternal word that brings people to God.  the word that makes others want to be around other human beings forever.  the word that makes for a tenuous relationship and a smooth one.  the word that is the hardest to define and yet the easiest to understand.  love can bring us together and some do not understand that.  some see the love freely given and run far, far away from it.  some wonder what the motives are behind the love that is given without cost.  a covenant, if you will, not a contract.  a one sided deal that says:
 i love you, period.  i have no expectations that you will love me in return or that you will even look at what i have done with any sort of acknowledgement, and yet...i love you.  i will not stop loving you, i will love you forever even when you say i am nothing or i am a waste of time.  the ends of the earth will not stop my love for you.  i hope you come to understand that my love for you is something that will never end. until that time i wait and i communicate my love to you in obvious ways that you may not see (or choose to ignore).  i really do not understand why you are so afraid of my love that you once accepted willingly.  but i guess i don't have to, i will just continue to love, period.
who would run away from that sort of love?

tired

of being alone and yet surrounded by so many.  it is overwhelming to see smiling faces shine back in the mirror at you when you know that the real deal is a broken heart and a worn spirit. it is cumbersome to wade day after day through the mire that is life.  sometimes the desire to stop wading is great and the request to be done is made.  and then something makes you decide that really it isn't worth it to end the march.  something makes you want to continue on in the place that includes others.  but still you are tired.

Soccer award cook out at the Henry's house

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Despicable me

So I read a blogger who didn't approve of this movie because of the glorification if evil. I see it another way...no matter how evil, good always prevails. The good in the girls hearts helps to win the bad guy over and out of his selfish ways. :) I love this movie!

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Warmer weather?

Oh how the weather reflects
My soul it is one in the same
Dark black clouds next to
Big fluffy white ones
Bright blue skies juxtaposed
With black ominous storm filled ones
Fat rain drops fall from above
While very shortly after that
A sky so clear and bright
You have to wear shades
So resonates the weather
In my soul
One moment there is rain and pain
While the next sun and fun
And no rhyme or reason
Nor understanding for it

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Me. Selfish.

How selfish I have been
to pain that is around me
Inside my own hurt and grief
Isolated in this cocoon
Then suddenly when I think
My pain is to much to withstand
My eyes are open to the pain that
Is in so many lives
That run parallel to mine
Why was I so blind
Why didn't I see
It is the human condition
To care for oneself above others
I hope to change that condition
In myself, with help of course

~~ ap. 30, 2011

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me

you see me and think i am afraid.
i'm not that's just your stereotype.
the thought is that when you approach
i am to shake in fear for your kind
is never good.
but really i see past that stereotype
i see a human who is different, yes
and yet so similar.
life has treated you in a manner that
has been difficult, i'm sure.
i am not negating the fact that life
has been easier for my kind
but you can't lump me like they
do you.
i am certainly different and you
would find that my life and yours
they aren't so different.
there are similarities if you could
see past the differences.

~~april 17, 2011