Love

the eternal word that brings people to God.  the word that makes others want to be around other human beings forever.  the word that makes for a tenuous relationship and a smooth one.  the word that is the hardest to define and yet the easiest to understand.  love can bring us together and some do not understand that.  some see the love freely given and run far, far away from it.  some wonder what the motives are behind the love that is given without cost.  a covenant, if you will, not a contract.  a one sided deal that says:
 i love you, period.  i have no expectations that you will love me in return or that you will even look at what i have done with any sort of acknowledgement, and yet...i love you.  i will not stop loving you, i will love you forever even when you say i am nothing or i am a waste of time.  the ends of the earth will not stop my love for you.  i hope you come to understand that my love for you is something that will never end. until that time i wait and i communicate my love to you in obvious ways that you may not see (or choose to ignore).  i really do not understand why you are so afraid of my love that you once accepted willingly.  but i guess i don't have to, i will just continue to love, period.
who would run away from that sort of love?

tired

of being alone and yet surrounded by so many.  it is overwhelming to see smiling faces shine back in the mirror at you when you know that the real deal is a broken heart and a worn spirit. it is cumbersome to wade day after day through the mire that is life.  sometimes the desire to stop wading is great and the request to be done is made.  and then something makes you decide that really it isn't worth it to end the march.  something makes you want to continue on in the place that includes others.  but still you are tired.